Saturday, December 1, 2012

25 days of high expectations

It’s the most wonderful time of the year……or that’s what the song says. I’m sitting here listening to Christmas music trying to figure out why I have this “meh” feeling? Is it because we are so busy this weekend that it seems over-whelming? Is it because I’m so busy at work we can’t see the end of the tunnel? Is it because my expectations for everything seem to be so high and so many things so unreachable or “not just right” that it is just disappointing and so then I go “why bother”? Hmm, I’m not sure what it is. But I know I want it to be the most wonderful time of the year.
I want my children as well as myself to remember what the holiday is all about. I don’t want it to be all about how many or what they receive for Christmas. I want it to be about Jesus, about giving to others, about family. So this year I told Emily that I was going to do the four gift Christmas. I read about the idea last year but in my heart I wasn’t prepared to do it and I even find myself leery about it this year but I also know that if we don’t start making changes now it will just be harder. The four gift idea: something you want, something you need, something to read, something to wear. I was even going to do a bonus and add something to watch.

I want Monday's to be movie Monday's were we watch a Christmas movie. Even if it is only an hour at least we will all be in the same room. I want wrapped Christmas stories to be unwrapped and read every night, I want daily advent time. I want, I want.....or wish or expect or dream. Doesn't it sound beautiful and wonderful. When in reality I know what it might turn out to be.......

I've been going back and forth, wavering on my expectations because I don't want the kids to be upset but I also know in my heart what I want, what I expect. May be I shouldn't, may be I should just let it go, but I am so tired of society making to so very difficult to raise a good valued family. Parenting is hard enough, and no I'm no giving up just because society is making it difficult and yes I know it is my job to decide what to do or not to do, or to subject my children to, so yes I will continue on my quest. I know there are some things you just can't change. And I know that even if their is some disappointment or my eldest might think I'm totally off my rocker, it might just plant a seed somewhere in the midst of their soul and if somewhere down the line it grows and blossoms into more then I have done my job.

It also helped that I ran across this blog today and it makes total sense. When You Need To Lower Your Expectations This Christmas So I will pray for patience and open the hearts of my family. So before we are off to the soccer marathon weekend, I'm going to put out some family traditions and get this party started!

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